It's been awhile

So, it has been almost a month since my last blog. I have been neglecting my writing because honestly I did not feel very positive about the way things have been working out recently. Our job situation has not been the greatest lately, and unfortunately we are having to move to my parent's home for a few months until we can get things worked out again. I feel this will benefit us in the long run. With all of the bad news lately, I feel that it is so hard to concentrate on the little things, but even as I type, I find myself disagreeing with myself. I can always find joy in my son, and the things he learns and does daily. This time in our lives is very humbling and is proving to be difficult to stay positive, but it is also providing my family with a fresh start and brand new outlook on our short term and long term goals.

Through this entire month, I have felt a peace about the situations that have been brought forth in this economy's fragile state...I wont pretend I haven't lost sleep or fretted to the point of tears, but there has always been a peace. The peace I find is in God and all of the ways He provides for me and my family. We have yet to do without anything we need. I have the most wonderful family and friends anyone could ask for. We have had groceries given to us, somehow our utility bill was paid...and I still haven't been able to figure out how, our landlord is more understanding than I could ever expect her to be, we have the most amazing neighbors, and we have prayer warriors continuously praying for us. All in all I have to say we are beyond blessed even in our trials. Sometimes you have to step back and look at the grand scheme of things to truly see all of the goodness in your life.

In the past month my son has become an entirely different person. His personality has grown so much. He is crawling (with some encouragement), he has cut two teeth, and he will be six months old in two days! Bryant crawled for the very first time while the three of us were sitting on the couch. Bryant was looking at me and I could tell he was hungry, I told him to come to me and he crawled from Josh's lap across the couch to me. I cried like a baby! It still amazes me that the tiny life that started in my belly just last year has learned so much and grown so much. I cried because I am so proud of him, because time has flown by so fast, because I worry for his future, because I am so emotional now that I am a mom, and because he is becoming more and more of and individual daily. Teething has been a little difficult but Bryant is a champ and has handled it relatively well. I tell you though, his chompers are sharp! I am hesitant to put my fingers within biting distance of him anymore. For Bryant's six month birthday I will be making him some kind of baby friendly cake, I haven't decided exactly what yet. But it will be in the form of a half cake...for his half birthday...get it? I will definitely post some pictures of the cutie.

In the past month I have learned so much. About faith. About my son. About me and Josh and the wonderful relationship we have in spite of stress. About how things always tend to work out, but not always how you want. To my readers, is there any advice you would share with families who are having a tough time in a recovering economy? Do you have a story about hard times in your life that you learned from? How do you find joy when it seems like nothing will work out?

This is my reason for everything I do. :)